Fields of burning flowers

We have all been there! Big or small. White or dark. We have all experienced this some time in our lives. Sometimes it’s innocent. It comes across as a safety net to catch you when you fall. Or maybe a little bit of lip stick to make you look a little better. But sometimes. Sometimes someone lights a match to one dying flower and sets the whole field ablaze. The fire keeps spreading, and spreading out of control. Which one have you experienced? How far has it gone. What do you do when you are standing in that field with fire all around you? Do you hunt for water? Do you run away? Or where you the one who started the chaos?

We all have all been there. We have all stood in that field. We either told a lie, or have been lied to. Not all those who told a lie meant to hurt you. But does fire mean to burn those who touch it? No. I am not saying that every lie is innocent. But I am saying that some mean to be, but still do damage. 

We all need to take a look at ourselves. You know the classic saying that mom would tell you, “do to others as you wish upon yourself.” Would you really want someone to lie to you? Even something so simple as “Does this make me look fat?” If it does, say YES!! Why lie and let the individual find out another way and be even more hurt? We all need to stop being so afraid of honesty. Stop fearing truth and confrontation. If more people expressed their feeling, fears, and emotions and actually tried to have a conversation instead of Facebook posts and Tender swipes- the world would be far less confusing. 

SAY IT! Say what is on your mind. Stop covering up the truth. Stop safety netting every step you make. Friends, Family, and strangers. Everyone deserves honesty. And if you truly care about someone, not one word of dishonesty should come out of those lips.

Let’s start today.

Make a pact with yourself to stop the lies. Together we can do this. Together we can create a world so beautiful and re-grow those lost fields.

Neurons of Chaotic Intent

It hurts. I’ve got this storm that’s crashing inside of me. A gentle rain to those around, but a hell of a tsunami drowning me from the inside out. Waves crashing upon my tired body. A feeling so cold. The sting like that of torns smacking across every inch of my skin. Something so chaotic, yet no one can see. No one can hear my screams. The tears are invisible. Almost as this was all part of my imagination.

It hurts. Ive given up so much. Always have. Probably always will. That’s just who I am. I put others first. I sacrifice my dreams. My journey. My potential. All in the hopes that happiness will shine upon others. Glow in ways I never could. But I’ve given too much. I can not replenish these pockets of mine.

It hurts. Im walking slowly down this road. There is a cross road ahead and I must make a choice. One says “Do as you have done.” And the other says “Do something for you.” I can see the outcomes spread out like a deck of cards on a table in front of me. Occasional Jokers and Wilds, but I can see my hand. So I finally do something for me and hurt so many people around me, or do I continue to tread water and gasp for air in this tsunami.

It’s hurts. Not knowing what to do. It hurts. It hurts.

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#SunLabs #SelfTanningLotion #Beauty #LisaPinelli I had the opportunity to try Sun Labs Self Instant Tanning Lotion and let me tell you, it works. And it works very quickly!

This product leaves a “real tan” look without that creepy orange glow. Don’t get me wrong, I love a nice orange, but to eat. Not on my legs! This lovely self tanner has a clean fresh aroma that you are not sniffing 3 hours later. If you have ever used self tanner, you probably know what I am talking about. 

All in all, great product. They have different tones [ light, medium, dark] as well as different products to try out. 

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Its been a while

It has been a while since I have written in here. I’ve had a lot of heartache, stress, laughter, joy. My life has been everything that a life should be. However recently life has caught up to me. I have found myself struggling to smile. My heart is heavy and I feel as if a piece of me is missing. 

I lost 2 of my girls. One was killed and the other died of heartache. My heart aches everyday for them. I can’t help but feel like it was my fault. That I could have prevented the whole tragic nucence. I promised my girls a better life. I promised a big house with an even bigger yard in the middle of nowhere. Somewhere they could run freely in the warm sunlight, breathing deeply the fresh clean air. This is what I promised. This is what I know they deserved and what I want more than anything. But those dreamed had to be put on hold. And sadly, my girls will NEVER experience it. And that, that is what hurts me the most. 

I am torn between two worlds. I am unsure of what to do with my life, and whether or not to pursue my dreams. I have dreams that do not meet others standards. Dreams that can cause others heartache and sadness. But what are my dreams worth. The struggle between making myself happy and making sure I am doing what is right for me, while others feel sadness. Or to disregard my own happiness to make others happy. This struggle is eating me alive.