It has been a while since I have written, shared, reviewed, rambled about anything on here. I want to change that. So HERE WE GO!
We are in a time of uncertainty. A lot of us are living in daily fear, anxiety, and depression. Some of us have found a way to excel and overcome the obstacles. Regardless of what mindset and situation YOU are in, we are all doing this together.
Isn’t it odd to think that the whole world is experiencing EXACTLY the same thing you are?
I find it oddly refreshing.
Not because I want others to suffer, but rather because the feeling that you are not alone in something so huge. We are all United!
That brings you back to my blog space. I want this to be a space where I can share my real feelings, my honest reviews, my “let’s ramble about something”. For the longest time, I was afraid to share my thoughts. I was terrified about what others would think of me. If someone I know in real life read my words, what would they say?
I am tired of “hiding” and I am going to start sharing!
I encourage you to leave honest words in the comments. Share your stories, feelings, thoughts, and life with me. Let’s UNITE in a creative way. This IS a safe place and I am ready to share without posting as private 🤦🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
As you all know, MAY is mental health awarness month, and today I felt like Raven; a big ball of crazy chaotic, all over the place emotions so I felt the need to write.
Raven Cosplay made by me
First off, I’m not writing this for you to say feel better, I’m sorry. None of that is necessary. I’m writing this to say hey, I’m just like you, and you, anddddd YOU! So please don’t
My whole life, people have put me down. Made fun of me. Picked on me, because I wasn’t just like them. I learned to accept it and know that there was nothing I could do. I didn’t turn into a Mega Beeee. I didn’t go on a murder everyone in sight spree either. However, I did develope pretty bad anxiety, depression, and self hate. I’ve struggled with this for so long. I didn’t speak. Literally, I was silent. I had no friends, and the ones I had, knew I didn’t say very much. I had eating disorders because people told me as fat. I didn’t want smile because people told me my teeth looked like vampire teeth. I hated who I was and didn’t understand why thought I was so awful. My depress got he best of me and I went into a pretty intense time in my life where I cut myself just to feel something more. I do not recommend this, don’t do it! All of this, all of these battles made me stronger, even though at the time I thought I was falling towards the pavement full speed. I personally think I have come a long way. I’m not perfect. I still struggle so hard sometimes, but I’m ok!
Today I had a thought. A thought that moved to a lot of thoughts, pain, and regret. Thoughts that made me question others and have such a heavy heart for a situation. I as in absolute tears. Balling my eyes out. I won’t go into details, but the reasoning for this is down below.
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Good!!
Lesson time
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Don’t let others opinions dictate your life. Over the decade plus time I have worked in this industry, used social media, grown as an adult, I have learned that it doesn’t matter who you are, what you do, where you live, what you eat, or who you are in a relationship with…. People will have opinions. Some good, some bad. Some people will hear rumors and go with it, expand on it, cry wolf. So many ways for people to attack, and trust me, they will.
Judgement without context
Judgement because of rumors
Judgement because … Judgement
This judgement will drown your bliss if you listen.
Don’t listen.
Don’t give in to the absolutely rediculous things people say. I open my DMs and read the most awful messages daily. For no reason. People find some form of joy, thinking that they hurt you. Don’t let them. Your happiness is important. You shouldn’t be scared to live your life. You only have this one, so live it. Live it for yourself and no one else.
– As for the “giving” end. Do not distroy others. One should not attack others until they are physically broken. No matter what. Be adults.
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With that being said. If you EVER need to talk, I am always a click and type type type away 😁
No one warns the girls, about the boys with the pretty eyes and luring smile.
Princes with castles. Fairy tales and happily ever afters.
The girl who was promised the world, must settle for this blanket of limited ground.
A ground covered in fields of flowers, with hiding glass that glistens in the sun’s warm rays.
Keep walking now to that ledge, your happily ever after can be a few steps ahead.
Balancing on a tightrope of disappointments, catching your breath, yet your heart’s still wide open.
Tippy toe now. The harder you try, the closer to the fall. Nothing seems to be enough for the one who can’t see they already have it all. Another item on their belt, you will never be seen for who you are, so you bow down and do as you’re told.
Keep trying now you’re almost there. Another few steps a few more tears.
Stumble, catch yourself. Another disappointment, look at that. Always seem to take 3 steps forward, but 5 steps back.
Sacrificing it all as you stumble along. This journey does not have to end with you on the bottom of this ditch.
Run now girl, you can have it all. Take a deep breath and don’t fear the fall. You are worth more than that Prince will ever see. You don’t have to give up everything for someone who won’t do the same.
You take a look back and see that castle of lost dreams. You now know, everything is not always as it seems. One last step, you made it now. No more broken glass shattered under those feet.
Lisa Pinelli 