As you all know, MAY is mental health awarness month, and today I felt like Raven; a big ball of crazy chaotic, all over the place emotions so I felt the need to write.

First off, I’m not writing this for you to say feel better, I’m sorry. None of that is necessary. I’m writing this to say hey, I’m just like you, and you, anddddd YOU!
So please don’t

My whole life, people have put me down. Made fun of me. Picked on me, because I wasn’t just like them. I learned to accept it and know that there was nothing I could do. I didn’t turn into a Mega Beeee. I didn’t go on a murder everyone in sight spree either. However, I did develope pretty bad anxiety, depression, and self hate. I’ve struggled with this for so long. I didn’t speak. Literally, I was silent. I had no friends, and the ones I had, knew I didn’t say very much. I had eating disorders because people told me as fat. I didn’t want smile because people told me my teeth looked like vampire teeth. I hated who I was and didn’t understand why thought I was so awful. My depress got he best of me and I went into a pretty intense time in my life where I cut myself just to feel something more. I do not recommend this, don’t do it! All of this, all of these battles made me stronger, even though at the time I thought I was falling towards the pavement full speed. I personally think I have come a long way. I’m not perfect. I still struggle so hard sometimes, but I’m ok!

Today I had a thought. A thought that moved to a lot of thoughts, pain, and regret. Thoughts that made me question others and have such a heavy heart for a situation. I as in absolute tears. Balling my eyes out. I won’t go into details, but the reasoning for this is down below.
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Good!!
Lesson time
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Don’t let others opinions dictate your life. Over the decade plus time I have worked in this industry, used social media, grown as an adult, I have learned that it doesn’t matter who you are, what you do, where you live, what you eat, or who you are in a relationship with…. People will have opinions. Some good, some bad. Some people will hear rumors and go with it, expand on it, cry wolf. So many ways for people to attack, and trust me, they will.

Judgement without context
Judgement because of rumors
Judgement because … Judgement
This judgement will drown your bliss if you listen.
Don’t listen.

Don’t give in to the absolutely rediculous things people say. I open my DMs and read the most awful messages daily. For no reason. People find some form of joy, thinking that they hurt you. Don’t let them. Your happiness is important. You shouldn’t be scared to live your life. You only have this one, so live it. Live it for yourself and no one else.

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As for the “giving” end.
Do not distroy others. One should not attack others until they are physically broken. No matter what. Be adults.

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With that being said. If you EVER need to talk, I am always a click and type type type away 😁